老娘我金光灿灿过日子

可能最近我真的是脑袋里经搭错了，一部接着一部看豆导拍的偶像剧。然后就看到吐司男之吻，我知道这个名字很傻逼！

但还是完全沉浸在里面，听起来很荒谬我有被感动！没什么情节，加上所有事情的发展都慢三四个调子。向来喜欢看这样的东西，没有快进，一点点往下看！ 我把从学校归来到现在的怪异行为，完全归结于天气。。。。。想到本来今天这个时候我应该在独鸡脚的省会，就开始可惜那两张机票。

一个奇怪的夏天，抱着台湾偶像剧，心疼人民币，诅咒那个狗屁专家门诊，看了一段“讨厌的人”对“喜欢的人”的访问

感叹刻意的率真很恶心，找到了唯一一个共鸣就是，他跟我一样对声音很苛刻。之后变成讨厌的那个人没有那么讨厌，对喜欢的那个人的感觉也就这样没了。 就像现在我半夜在这里放屁，屁放出来，是臭的，那些人之前都不吊我的人闻到了，会围过来也放个屁走掉，没闻到会通过那些闻过我臭屁的人间接地感受到我放的 那个屁是臭，然后也看样吃屁的围过来放两个屁。最后我要的效果就达到了，我证明了放得屁是臭的，完毕！！！

我又想到把所有这一切奇怪的发生都归结于天气会不会很不道德，妈的，爸妈教说话的时候怎么就不能顺带着把脏话也一起教了！妈的，什么的鬼天气!妈 的，我爷爷怎么跟玛雅人预言到一起去了！妈的，我怎么就活过了21年！妈的，你忍个屁啊！妈的，我讨厌手机！妈的，从明天开始我要很专心地吃饭！妈的，奇 怪的夏天！

    第一次接触默剧，票是个男生给的，比我小一届。可能是因为不熟，给我票的时候特腼腆，还愣是不肯收钱。连连感叹，如今这样的男人不多见。

一打十张票，粗糙的复印纸，白底黑字，默剧——此时无声胜有声，摇头，俗名。那在手里很厚实。

拖到演出的最后一天去了，看着那张诚恳的脸，有点难受，本想着是为了给他捧场的，现在倒好，无端浪费了七张票。

节目单上他的名字在第一个，小惊喜，没想到他主演。仔细回想了一遍，当初知道他是通过寝室一个女生，俩人老乡。认识他很偶然，进大学第一个MV，找他演的男主角。中间一起吃过一次饭，之后就再没什么交集。印象中再听到他的名字从室友A变成了室友B。

那天接到他的电话，没想到手机里还存了他的号，久违了的无比客气的声音近乎请求，我很爽快地答应了。

说实在对这个男人我没什么特别的感觉，只是模糊地记得他的身高，能辨认出他的脸再没别的。等着开场，混乱地记忆。

灯暗了又亮，一堆人上台，我才突然意识到自己完全不了解“默剧”。等那一堆人散去，似乎也看出了点门道，“默剧”有别于“哑剧”，它没有否定语言的功能，更多地表现精神层面的东西。

我的神经末梢还未将信息传递到突触上，他走上了台，女人就是女人，第一感觉就是黄光下变帅了。几近颠覆的表演，至少在我看来是，舞台上他自然、自在地博取着，博取目光，掌声，尖叫。大脑一遍遍被过滤再被冲击，感觉神奇。他用角色达到了他要的效果，演出结束以后他发来短信说：卸妆的时候我哭了。

有些东西一旦放入感情就强大得可怕，戏剧是如此，默剧更是。默剧像做爱，爱是做出来的，默剧的语言是肢体运动创造出来的。叫床和音效都是催化剂增加欲望和激情，做爱的G点是男女同时高潮，默剧的G点是台下人读懂台上人。

完全没想到，默剧的结尾会HIGH到爆，与其说是共鸣不如说共振。

当没有能力去爱的时候去爱默剧吧，今晚高潮了，所以懂了。

 

 

 

 

 

 

本来都决定好了的，到最后还是变主意了。不知道为什么总喜欢去改变原本打算好的事，其实对电视我还真没什么兴趣。

好好地坐着重温《空房间》，特滋蜜的时候，右边来一人说，你晚上得考试，就这样稀里糊涂地去了

进去考底下一男一女俩老师坐着烤火，一列八个人对着站着噼里啪啦瞎扯。

题目：是先成家后立业，还是先立业后成家

八个人无一例外地选了后者。

那七个人死命地在说，那争抢地架势真他妈凶猛。我一句都没听进去，满脑子想的是《空房间》

真正的灵魂的伴侣啊，连语言都无法在他们的交流中建构，物质算个屁！我开始想象幻想，幻想自己进入了视野范围外的另一个180°空间，然后后悔先前的选择！当七个人开始进入幸福点和价值取向的探讨时，我回来了。

男老师发话：一包烟，一杯茶，一本书，一张床，你躺着，很舒服，看书，完全投入。突然头顶上砸下来一百万，你是继续看书，还是捡钱。 我选书！！

我发话：我也选书，条件是我已经有了一百万。书——精神食粮！不管你如何努力去追求精神层面的东西，也拜托不了物质的束缚。

《空 房间》里那对灵魂伴侣是幸运的，他们寻找着一个又一个的空房间，修补物质空间里缺失的精神，用他们的体温去温暖暂时离开的冰冷且支离破碎灵魂。但是仅凭两 个人的温度似乎起不到任何作用，一切还是照旧。破了就是破了，再也找不回来了！最后男人被逼到了人类视野范围之外的另一个180°空间里，他自由了，并实 现了精神层面的真实。也得到了他感情的赋予体，他爱的那个女人。当他和他的爱人同时站在秤上的时候，计数归零，他们消失了

真实是什么？是成家还是立业，这些东西能带给我们真实的感觉？我眼镜看到的就是真实的吗？我思绪完全飘散，不在状态！

女老师发话：成家不贵，七块钱人民币买张结婚证，但它所饱含的意义是一辈子的安宁是家。

我发话：当你有勇气掏出那七块钱人民币的时候，需要的冲动不至一点点！！

《空房间》里那个伤痕累累的女人，就是典型。失败的婚姻，家庭暴力，一个人的“空房间”,无止境的忍耐。。。

当这一切被一个突然闯进的男人打破时，她笑了！我也笑了！

爱情的三个基本成分是亲密、激情与承诺，爱情的保质期是18到30个月。时间过去，承诺也被淡忘了，之后呢？不要分手，也不要变质成亲情，那就让爱从此升华然后消失吧！

考试在的幻觉中结束！

I dont think sliced bread,corn,apple,yogurt,edc,for everyday's diet is healthy.

I dont think the girl who looks fat, isn't a breath of fresh air.

I dont think splash all the money on food is silly.

I define for happyiness is doing the things u like.

I dont think sliced bread,corn,apple,yogurt,edc,for everyday's diet is healthy.

I dont think the girl who looks fat, isn't a breath of fresh air.

I dont think splash all the money on food is silly.

I define for happyiness is doing the things u like.

Japan is becoming a fast-breeder of youth culture,with its population of relatively rich youngsters who have short attention spans and intense love for new fads.

U know Tokyo is a city which mixed devirse culture together.It gradully become the center of Asian Fationable.Tokyo breeding the culture represents Japanese design level.Viewing around local culture,u will soon find Japanse designer's ideas always from Chinese traditional mythes.But why only Janpanse culture conquer the westen appreciation of beauty not Chinese.The most important is Japan provideds an Asian dimension to the popular culure in way.

 Youth culture is freaky,emotional,puzzl,full of dreams,ideas,notions.Youngstes' attitude is:Doing dream while wiping out.Chinese designer never catch the key.

"I wanna live so young,so pure,so quiet.Until one day I can suddenly disappear on the road without defence."

Maybe escape is one of the human's most historical emotion which we probably yearn for.Bible said we can't live alone,immense freedom means immense solitude.I read it again and again,and found there were a few sorts of solitude.I wonder people feel lonely in the crowd or in the wild,which one will be stronger.I can't tell the difference between reality and wild,only knows the tough guy is never mind what he don't care,without regrets and live alone in his own world.

The truth is we only live in our own world that can get rid of the solitude,but the problem is we can't live in our own worl,so the solitude always around us.

 

We have glimpsed a few clues to the destiny of our future.No matter hopeful or not,it's just a kinda guesstimate.Everyone around me seems fighting and struggling all day,clean goal,simple life.Belief is no pain,no gain,that's all!

Anyway I don't wanna cost all my time,to see the final fate looks like curtain for life!

It's extremely horrorable!

"It's difficult to understand the sum of a person's life.Some people will tell u it's measured by the one's left behind.Some believe it can be measured in faith.Some say by love.Other folks say life has no meaning at all.Me?I belive that u measured themselves by u.What I can tell u for sure is that by any measure."

                                                                                    --- The start of a pretty warm story

About two terminally ill cancers,two cute geezers,one has a somewhat odd,and the other has a bit of obstinat!U never image it:A lonely old man who knows his last days,spent all his remain time with his strange wardmate,they created a list of to-dos,then started their amazing escape,except enjoyed the luxury from nature they constantly reworte their list!Geez two kinda tricky men! 

I prefer to enjoy every day of being live rather than lay on the bed,never late!  

Gazing at loads of clothes that hanging in the cabinet,I have no idea which one I like best or match for me.Every night lying in the bed,think about tomorrow I can choose which cloth to match the jeans.Wait,wait,wait,dress must be better,maybe another pants.Ugh,damn it!

How many clothes u have means how many problems u will get.Why women always bring trouble to self?  Shit!!!

I got a couple of  sea set tonigt,so beautiful they r!

The gift from one of my friends,formerly there were some trouble between us,anyway it's okay now!He travled to Jing Dezheng this summer holiday,I'm immerse moving that he took  breakable sea sets with heavy luggage by the train without air-condition,alas it's hard enough! I conceded he had intent of giving us an superise.

The couple of sea sets with hardcover and delicate carving,gee,must be costly!Money sometims reflect kinda of his sincerity.

U know how strong women's jealous emotion,Susie and I soon made an conclusion,the tea sets was for his girlfriend at first.Unfortunately,during the trip he break up with her,so the love gift conversion to friendship gift!Perfect,thrift is Chinese virtue!

   

"The palce where we want to go but never be there,u know it?"

"Pukou trains station!!!" 

"Well,set out tomorrow!"

"OKAY!!"
New semester come and back to school again,it's the first day we get together,for celebrateing the new start we have an amazing tiny trip!

Make a pose before the camera show how beautiful u r,but u know I just shooting!

Under the sunshine,the light not bright enough,the sky not blue enough,I never satisfy the colour in my pictures!It's better under the lamp light,one angle one feeling keep changing,conversion to dreamy beauty!

Starting to my brand new sepctacle!

 

The most lamentable is never know what u want.

When u have ur own dream

Maybe will find u don’t like ur woke,but try ur best . ‘Cause hobby can’t change any rice. 

U can do the only one well, not two.

When u decide to pursue ur dream, just do it and give up all u have.

Although u keep a little, that means u have a rout of retreat, success need wholeheartedly.

The dream conversion to  its beauty! 

  

When I fell down,u ran to me and helped me behind

When I was crying,u talked to me and wiped my tears up

When I was walking in the nigth,u palyed with fire,to lit the dark rode

We were enjoying icecreams,eating mixed rice

Sweet and hot

U warmed my hands,I miostened ur lip

Nomatter what the world like,human always beautiful

Heart always kind,only thanksgiving without complaint

 

 

 

 

Everyone is looking for their place

Everyone is enjoying the emotion of looking for

Sometims u'll be in fortune,someone get the grip 

Sometimes u'll be in trouble,someone give up

Nomatter what outcome u get,the key is never regret for the past

 Nomatter which cheese u get,the key is never forget to applaud to self

I don't know,which is the truth:

U love him so u trust him 

U trust him than u love him

The winner is bracing himself and holding the measure

Maybe not u and me,we r so cool! 

 

 

 

 

Why my friends always have trouble with their parents,maybe love compass every members of the family and deceive our eyes!

Girls' one of the closest friends must be mom,maybe the kinda same gender we r,the kinda same character we r,the kinda same looks we r.Mom gave us life,loving and defending us all the time, no matter where we r,her heart will run to us and always be with us.

We love each other so much while hurt each other much more!

We complained about her nagging,or she bashed off our brand new perspectives again and again,she never confirm us even in our dreams,etc.When we have a cold war with our mom,we only see her defacts!

"Geeses,I HATE HER!!!",u couldn't help to shouting!U know what,it's too hard to hate someone,much less she is mom!U cann't accept her care,let's get rid of it,now thinking about the happy time with her!

 U beg her to comb ur mass hair,her hands were tender!U like her perfume,when u feel nervous,the smell will make u calm down soon!U enjoy sleepping with her,behind her,u still a little baby! 

Stop puzzling my girls,I will give u a puzzle,rig up the wholly puzzle there is no puzzle anymore!Everthing gonna be okay!

 

Man:The worest thing around here is wine.It's disgusting,I don't drink it anymore.It's wrong to drink something one doesn't like,to accept things one dislike.See people one dislikes...Caress a girl one dislike.It's the height of immorality.My greatest defect is to try to confirm my first impression.For example,I know if I don't like a girl's nose,her legs will leave me cold.

Woman:Then don't touch them?

M:Besides...

W:What?

M:Listen,I don't like u running after me.

W:I'm not!

M:Yes,u r.I can tell when a girl'd interested.Under other circumstances,u could have me.I'm not too weak and accommodating.One must know one to be moral.And when I think of u as a girl,I might sleep with all I see is ur faults.Though u must have sone good qualities.

W:U think so?

M:Why not to go after him?

W:Of course,he's far superior to u as a person,but his morals r less rigid than mine.

     U r not the only two men around,u know?

M:I know,the other one,u'r too attractive.

W:We both carry the same cross! 

Emotion is the key to choose which style of the music,by the tiny change,u will get close to ur deep heart.

 Rcok&Punk kinda from innermost singing,it's easy devote to!Upset ha?Listen these music,u will no sooner find the echo than the sadness come!At that moment,ur heart will tell u that:I love it,it's my spirit pillar!Wow his voice so sexy,ultimate for me!The consquence is:Nothing is matter except music!

In the sunny winter afternoon with lover,quit emotion!Jazz Blues Bossa nova r all advisable, maybe a cup of hot coffeegsentiment more strong!

 

 

 

One man:Perhaps style is more important than beauty.

B woman:But in love the notion of beauty is essential.We love someone because we find him handsome.

A woman:No,we find him handsome because we love him.

M:Yes,a man maybe ugly yet have immense charm.If he is love,his ugliness is transform into beaty.

A:For me an ugly man has no charm.Nothing's possible it's over immediately.

B:What's over?

A:Anything,even the most superfical relationship.Even to have a drink for five minutes,I can't !If he's ugly,I leave.Can u be friends with someone u find ugly?

B:Ugliness and beauty don't enter into my friendships,I don't see my friends as either ugly or handsome.

A:But friendship dosen't happen in five minutes.It takes several encounters.How do u mange that  with someone u find ugly?

B:Among crowds of beautiful people,I'm only interested in those who possess something more than beauty.Someone of absolute beauty would bore me.

A:I'm not talking about Greek beauty.Absolute beauty dosen't exist.To find someone handsom,sometims the tiniest thing is enough.Perhaps something between the nose and mouth.

M:So anyone has a chance if appealing to u?

A:No

M:At least a chance!

A:No,that's the problem,I find very few people handsome,and it really hampers my relationships terribly.Because if I'm repelled,I never see that person again.And since many people repel me.

B:U never change ur mind?

A:The first thing I say if I'm asked to dinner,isn't"What does he do?"but"Is he handsome?"

M:And ugly one's r always doomed!To the ovens?

A:They deserve, ugliness is an insult to others.One's responsible for one's looks.For instance,a nose moves or ages,according to how one thinks or speaks.Besides,I'm not talking about static beauty.One's movements expression,gaint all that counts,doesn't it?

 

Cups of coffee,chain smoke to kill the morning time,eventhough I'm still sleepy!

Sometimes lit a cigarette need guts,this motion make me scare,worry about others see me!They will guess: i'm a shameless girl,or too lonely to do this dull things,maybe in a special time be down and out,better just for fun,alas blah~~

I really need a machine to boil coffee,it must be costly,elegant shape!It seems like the coffee  taste more delicate,there is something wrong with my brain,not Dainelle

I'm a real parnanoid!!! 

Sandwich,u know tasty,convenient.Also, is one of absolutely necessary food on the picinc table.Now imagine it,u crush on a couch,listening Samba,then ur lover bing a DIY sandwich to u!Sign,happiness,more and more!

Tell u some ponits to DIY it:

Burden:White Toast,Ham,Egg,Dried pork,Lettuce,Tomato,don't forget some sea moss

Smear salad on the two pieces of toast,sprinkle enough dried pork and sea moss,put a batteregg,pieces of ham on,now u need vegetable lettuce and tomato!Okay,close the two pieces of toast with all these burden in!

Try it,wow DIY delicacy!Eventhough u r in a bad mood,make a low calorie sandwich 

 Everyting gonna be okay!

 

             

"I don't wanna do the works to hurt somebody,just like force them to buy a  dull thing,for the designer it's quiet important,the question is ethics for designer is too diffcult and complex."

                                                                                                               ---Milton Glaser 

There is a big red heart in the middle of the famous brand "I LOVE NY",maybe it is one of New York natives' most identical design,but few people knows the designer is Milton Glaser.The great depression in 1976,America had hard time,New York city called into a big action named“I LOVE New York",Milton's design received a high praise.The playbills with big red haert were soon appear at every corner of the city.Nowadays people seems used to replacing the big red heart to  LOVE,and think of :"it was the most popular motto in human history !"The copiers r extending all over the world.

After "9.11" incident happened,Milton popularized "I LOVE NY MORE THAN EVER"immediately,to comfort those terrified NY people.The big red heart still hot,but there was a little lump of  black scar,signifying the tragic case in the World Trade Center.

I love this dizzy and rich city,NY!

U know RBob Dyla's album "Blood on the tracks"it's great

 

It's dull to face one person over and over again,I wanna get rid of him,u know specially for man,the man I assosiated now！He cannt bear i'm two in minds!

Feeling his crestfallen air,maybe we didn't deeply know each other,the love came too fast and unstable!I never query his heart,I know everything is true!

Should i query myself,whether i'm a suck "dude",I will answer for the love,put my emotion in order and do a right option!

There r many decisions waiting u everyday,u cann't leave them away,u need enough guts,then persist in!If u opt wrong just say:All right,it's all over, F-U-C-K!Okay,bad luck bowls up!

The movie Elegy,full of eroticism and desires,Ben Kingsley plays a professor about sixty,his life without love for a long time,when he met Spanish sexy goddess Penélope Cruz,one of his students,at the first sight he fell into the love river!For her young good shape,little bit swarthy skin,soft lip,everthing i wanna possess!

Impulse just like a demon or a little charm,nobady can control,just let it go!Releasing the content in ur heart,try ur best to make love!

 

 

He asked me:what i really want!Since he showed up he had gaven me loads of gifts,perfume,watch,necklace,etc,everything can confirm he is rich!I don't know what to say,yes,I like him,just like,not these costly things.

I concede,I'm practical,I need money to fill up all my desires,so,its my business,I will pay for it by myself!

He has two sisters,they love him very much,give the best to him!

Maybe the love is too much for him,he said he wanna give me all at once!I have no preparednes,and cannt accept!

Holy shit,I'm hysterical,eager to excel to hold the line 

 

 

 

News ：Yesterday,a man from Hangzhou try to kill two of America tourist in Beijing,causing one dead,one injured!How astonishing,the Hangzhou guy was really cool ha, it means runing againest the US!Ahahaha,all of Hangzhou menfolk be honour of him!U guys aware of my abiding dream is getting the Greencard of America,if i was that man,before i kill the American guy donnt forget to threaten him:U must find a woman for me,i will  marry her  then get what  want(Greencard)!Ugh,a perfect plan without a hitch!

News :Today,Jingjing Guo and Minxia Wu got the Olympic women couple diving gold,defend their No.1's title!I proud of them,but u know i wonder why named Xia alway get the diving gold medal!Former is Mingxia Fu,now is Minxia wu,gees,it's ridiculous!

Two News just for fun! 

 

Someone u hate just like u hate at the first sight,no reason,no notion!But after all u r kinda relative,so u have to pretend yourself!Say hi in the morning,obey his command,help him when he need,broad grin in his dull joke!What a shame,everything i can't help!

Growing up means practical,get the point to bear,most of occasion speechless is the best way!As time passes i cannt exactly tell what is the right and what is the,many truthes turned to ambiguous.It remains plain congee in my head,useless pretence,sooner or later will blow up!

 

 

Last night's dream stuck in my mind all the time,it's weird, about Tibetan independence organization!In the dream I was invited to join in and I agreed,we received an secret order to end up the Olympic opening ceremory when it start.It's stimulating ha?I pointed out that we can pour the liquid explosive into the pure water's bottle then sale and the site is the nest's entrance!

Gees,the action was cool so if successed it would be Chinese national humiliation and last forever!It sucks,i'm a extraodinary rebel in my dream!But u know dream is our potential,I admite I'm a good Chinese,cos of 2008 Olympic,as a kinda sponsor,i love China more than ever,But do not absolutely uphold political power!

 Tonight eight will hold Beijing Olympic inauguration,"One world one dream" maybe my mine is different!No matter what i wish everything gonna be okay,Beijing and my manic weird action!BONG BONG BONG,now let's call it a day,a big day we r waiting too long !

donnt know why i won't be alone on the Volentine's Day，I had a date with my little mentor a pretty cute guy,u know i fond on him!

He just got his last month salary,so as a remarkble apprentice I got a costly dinner,it's fair!

The restaurant was so cool,colourful mural painting,sweet hot-coco,tasty dessert

There r a piano on the circle stage,he play Bossa Nova on it for me,his favourite Lisa's "My Sun" ,I love his smil,just like a dream,wholly fell deep inside!After i met him,I always donnt know how to express my motion!

I asked him:What is the LOVE?

"It was the first time u saw him,u stare at him cos u can't  lose any detail.At that moment u would find that his tie was neat but a little bit loose,his shirt-collar was clean but had a somewhat wrinkly!Then U begun to fancy every morning i must get up early,first thing is ironing his white shirt ,when he leaves never forget tighten his tie!That's simple love!"

Maybe I never really fall in love ,even never have a simple love ,i guess!

 

Yesterday some friends in high school got together and talking till midnight.There r loads of memories for us,interesting,silly,crestfallen,desperate,edc.Though years elapsed from the time ,but all of these r memorable!

I saw him,he came late!We still have connection now,I don't know why when i saw him i feel somewhat tense,then my heart pouding so hard in my chest that i thought it advisable to clame down a bit.I left the room like a goose,he feollowed me！

“R u  okay?"he  asked

“It's~ all~ right!" a little wag!Maybe i didn't prepare to meet him,it's need guts a lot of!

When we back,everybody were talking about us, though about the high school years our relationship were too complex to express.Seemingly most of the tales were concerned to us,it was quit hard in these days!Overview happiness more than grief,that's enough!

Now what i should do is to cherish our memories,without any regret!Coz i know keep in mind is better than let it go!Whereas my girls cherish the memories of ex-guys,and never regret deeply,tomorrow is a brand new start!

 

Recently I got a job,i like it!It's leisured working in a westen style restaurant,most of the guests are foreigners,the blond guys are gentle and really looked good.Bread is a part of my life,concern to my dream,every afternoon my mentor will bake kinds of cakes and cookies,the kitchen is fall of fragrance!I love the smell,i can feel the happiness inside the sweet.Occasionally i recalled my mentor that cute guy i have never encountered before,like his lip,his natural brown hair,his voice and his tender fingers are so beautifule.In my dream i toched his fingers very soft,gee,kind of warm!For the cook Hands the life,so his life must wonderful!

I can't express that feeling, craving for something with all heart!I wanna hold on him and his hand,I know it's just a daydream,he is my mentor but younger than me,he has a pretty girlfriend!Why I'm a original girl,without any attractive,so so-so,complain ~complain~complain~

Previously i'm sure i will try,tell him what i thought,never consider of others just like a tender girl!I coceded i not cool or brave any more,I just terrify that my profession of love is too powerful that will hurt someon!Just kidding,but my presence absolutely infulence him!

Keep thes feeling in the heart,become a vivid dream also beatiful even more!